Sleeping Early

Dear mom,

You always asked me to get bed early

But all I did was toss and turn

For my mind wandered

To the places I've been

And the ones I'm yet to

The places I guess, where I'll never be

And the ones I'm yet unaware of

My nights were followed by insomnolence

For I would overthink

Overthink all the possibilities that would come true

And the ones that wouldn't

I kept on tossing and turning

Thinking of all the plans I had ever made

And the ones I actually implemented

As my nights were filled with insomnolence 

I battled with the living nightmares

Sometimes anxious

Worrying that one day

I'll be sleeping early

Before the rising sun 

The clucking of the hens 

The 'hide and seek' of kids playing

The dances of the leafy trees

With the whistling of the birds

Being early

To ever see that again

And badly wishing to dance like crazy 

But barely be capable of walking

I'll think about how many lives I let die

And realize

What every single moment meant

For that will be the day

When I will not only be sleeping early 

But also forever

The day when

I will be free from this daydream

I shall finally be able to dream

For I'll complete my tenure by then

Ensuring

I tasted all the flavors I had to

And all the smells I could

Loving all I had to

And forgiving ones I could

Wandering everywhere I wanted to

Reaching where I should

Where I'd come to conclude that

I traveled the world

To find where I belonged

And

Seldom believed this was the place

The comfort of this very bed

The most peaceful of all

Where I'll be carrying the weight of the world

In my shoulders

No more.